Death and Sleep - but not in that order

Hey readers,

I haven't had a decent night sleep since last Friday when I slept in my own bed - my original bed. 

With my original hard mattress that was unforgiving in every single way.

Now it's in a spare bedroom of mine - waiting patiently to be reunited with a body. 

I think the mattress on this new bed is too soft or too giving for my body.

I crave the sturdy-ness with no dips or waves.

Anyway I think sometimes that something as simple as sleep can be taken for when all of a sudden it's not as present as it used to be.

Nowadays I find myself staring at a black at white ceiling as the motion light flicks on and off during the wrestling of my husbands bed rolling.

At least one of us is getting some sleep.

In other news...

The first thing I always do in the morning is check my work emails after I clock in.

I learned today of not one but two sad things -

A co-worker of ours passed away this past Saturday. We were only just informed yesterday.

He was 71 years old.

I can't believe how much can change in even a day.

I just saw and talked to him the day before his accident - he was jolly and cracking jokes as always and then that next day he just never came back.

This news is still shocking to me.

Nothing can prepare you for a death - whether you know it's coming or not.

It's just a horrible thing. A sad thing.

I feel for his family and friends and everyone who knew him. He will surely be missed.

​Rest in peace M.S.

The other horrible news I learned today was that another co-workers father had passed. 

He had been with him this week - spending time with him.

I feel horrible. 

Again I cannot imagine what it's like to lose a parent. No matter what age you are.

I cried in my kitchen today after my parents left as the thought hit me hard that one they aren't going to be here anymore.

I'm not going to be able to see them.

I think part of it just stems from the day and me thinking of these two men that we lost today and it had me reflecting on my own parents.

It tore me apart inside. 

Always tell those closest to you - whether it be your parents, grandparents, boyfriend, girlfriend, best friend, husband, children - how much they mean to you and how much you love them because the day may come sooner than you think that you don't have the chance to anymore.

I know how morbid that all sounds but it's the hard truth. It's the facts of reality - that we don't know how much time we have left and when our day is. All we know is when our time is up it's up and we don't get a do over or a chance to rewind for more time.

So in saying that - live and have no regrets doing it.

Stay safe out there my friends && as always, I appreciate ya!