Harder than I thought

I always knew this day would come

The closer it is the more difficult it seems

There are so many things I'm going to miss out on

So many years spent together - so many years of seeing each other every day

Suddenly the walls are quieter - the halls run empty

The only sounds that remain to echo through the walls is the knocking of the fridge, Lola's chewing, and the washer walking when it's throwing an off balance angry temper tantrum

As sad as it is - is as exciting as it is

A new chapter beginning while one closes

I cried on the outside and died a little inside when I cleaned off my corkboard on my desk

It was a hard thing to swallow

Memories that had been pinned in place for years had remained unchanged but were given additions

Old photos of friends I once knew and jobs I once held - places my husband and I had went to - rings and necklaces that I never left the house without

Oh how the times change - how routines change - how people change

​The best way I can describe what I am going through right now is a Toy Story reference

The when were Andy is growing up and going to college - they are showing his room through the years what it looked like and how it changed - more and more things disappearing off the walls - from the floor and the bed

That is me - every time I go in my room more and more things are gone

Before long there will be nothing left 

Just an empty room with a carpet

And a house full of memories and photos

I joke that we should have a sleep over party once a week but I know the answer is no - even though sometimes I kind of wish it could be yes

No one ever said letting go was easy or that change was easy but they also didn't warn that leaving your home would be just as hard

Maybe not for all but for some

As I've been looking around and noticing things more I have come to appreciate the little things that for some reason I thought would always be there

Time to take the training wheels off and to grow up

Isn't it funny that whenever you are a kid you think that life is so hard and all you want to do is be an adult

Then when you are an adult you realize how easy you had things as a kid and only wish you could go back

Stay safe out there && as always, I appreciate ya!