Into the unknown

Ohhhh I'd say it's been quite a day over here folks - but THAT would be an understatement:

I got lost today and not just in the literal term

I got lost physically and emotionally

For a brief moment I lost myself even - questioning if I would make it home

Could I physically drive home?

I don't know.

But it's a miracle that I made it on my own.

And you better believe I thanked God for helping me.

I read a quote that said the following: "It's okay to be disappointed that someone didn't turn out to be the person that you needed. But what you mustn't do is grieve as though they were the one." - Matthew Hussy

Geez oh man, that cuts deep. Like a blade of a knife inserting itself through my skin.

But I have to wonder was it bad luck when I broke that mirror on accident?

What about when I walked under that ladder?

How about when the black cat crossed my legs?

Do you believe in superstitions? 

Should we?

All I knew back then was that..."I really wanted it to be you. I wanted it to be you so badly. Until I understood you didn't want it to be me." - d.c.

The most pathetic feeling you can have is when you get into a fight with someone because you wanted to express what made you upset, but instead of them apologizing, they found a way to make you feel bad about what is bothering you. I always gave into what I wasn't comfortable with but somehow there was a lack of that in return.

I don't like being right...but one thing I hated being right on was when I truly found out that I did love more than what I was receiving - and if you haven't experienced that - it's something you can't even imagine. It's painful and it sucks.

Love is more than words it's actions, it's being present, it's making an effort, it's affection. But as the months slide away so do my memories of either a, b, c, or d.

"Today if you do nothing else at all, at least take a moment to stand tall. Take a deep breath. Put your hand on your chest. Feel your heartbeat. Feel the air move through your lungs. You are beautifully alive. You are needed here so much." - Jennae Cecelia

I couldn't have given more love than I did, more thoughtfulness, more care, couldn't have made you feel more special and that speaks volumes to me now.

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Stay safe out there && as always, I appreciate ya!