RIP Lola </3

No one can ever prepare you for something like this...how can they?

No one is ever prepared for the death of a family member.

When there has been a presence present so strong for 9 years...it's as if everything is suddenly completely silent.

To say that I am broken by this, forever damaged by this is a complete understatement. The remaining pieces of my fragile heart have now been crumbled, I'm completely heartbroken.

I'm waiting to her a thump for her carrot or her paws running across the floor...waiting for a sound I'll never hear again.

Today was undoubtably one of the hardest days of my life and it doesn't look to be getting better anytime soon.

Tomorrow when I'm less sick I'll tell you what happened and all the associated thoughts that have been circling in my mind today.  

She would've been 10 next month.

RIP my little Lola, Lo, Lew, Lew-Lew <3 one day mommy will see you again - I love you so much, you were such a good girl <3

Hold your pets close, give them an extra hug and a kiss, you never know when one day you wake up and they are forever gone.