When the sun came out

"And when the sun finally did come out...it was beautiful."

Those words I found myself repeating as I walked back to my desk yesterday.

For the first time in a long time, I was content with myself and what I had done throughout the day.

I wouldn't say I felt good about myself, but I wouldn't say I felt like shit either. I just didn't feel "bad" and it was an accomplishment to just feel..."normal."

And even though every day is a new day with new challenges to face at least I can say I had a day where I saw the sun and it was beautiful. And to means what that means is I saw my future. I saw my potential, my next steps, my life ahead of me.

Ever since I was a GM I've always said it's the little things you do for people that stand out and that they appreciate even if they don't say anything right away.

That little attention detail, that extra step, that surprise when they aren't expecting it.

I took a different approach yesterday - a "managerial" one if you will, which isn't my job now - I listened, I heard, and I reacted to the employees around me. And honestly I feel like I did a good thing for about four of the people I worked with.

And as much as I could tell they were happy about it - that made me feel good again. To give back and to help. To perform a small action silently saying, "your wants or needs are important."

I'm sure it felt good for them to be listened to and heard - really heard not just heard and then brushed off - heard to the point where actions were put into place and then completed.

I thought that would be the highlight of my day but actually that was just the beginning when I held my meeting to reenergize a dying topic it went great. I had mt agenda with who I wanted to speak about what as well as when I would speak and about what. And it was great - it was organized and just flowed effortlessly, and I can't really say we had an hiccups at all. We actually finished the meeting right on time too and with no side bar conversations. Everyone was engaged and the energy was great. 

I decided when the meeting started that there are just certain things that I don't particularly care about in this moment and that is saying what I want to, when I want to. Not holding it in for fear of...well you know what I mean - everyone has experienced that once or twice.

So, I took a deep breath and stood in front of the room when I was speaking. I appreciated that we made this team into our safe zone - that we can say our opinions without being interrupted or talked over - without someone disregarding what we had to say. The cutoff for not being agreed with.  

I thanked them for allowing me to feel like in this room we are a team, and we are safe to speak our opinions. 

I also sent out some recognition emails later on when I still hadn't come down from the high yet.

Hopefully it always stays like and with the group we have, I have no doubts. But they are silently helping me with something too - they are accepting me and allowing me to practice public speaking about issues and I'll be forever grateful once I feel more confident doing that. 

I'm sorry - I don't mean to go on a rant about my day it's just that anymore so little of them are "good" for me. And it's not that they are bad by any means I just consider them "good."  

I hope you guys had good days this week - stay safe out there && as always, I appreciate ya!